Friday, September 15, 2006

Self-Analysis

Well, I suppose my desire in yesterday's post that that new show, have some moments of real connectedness and not just people laughing at each other, is actually indicative of what I WANT, in my own life, in some relationships, well, some positive relationships, than it is a feeling about the show itself. It's about that, TOO, but now I feel stupid because it seems so obvious that it is about me and what I feel, and feeling unconnected to/with people.

Anyway, wonder what I should charge myself for this scintillating analysis . . . hee hee.

EDIT: OR, maybe I'm so afraid of being hurt, that tv is the only safe way to be/feel connected between people. OR, maybe I'm just plain afraid of connectedness.

Ah, this post was better before the edits. Cause maybe I DON'T want more connectedness, even though I think I do. Or maybe I do, even if I think I don't.

Now THAT's why I'm in therapy; cause I'm all mixed up. I think I can agree with myself on that . . .

4 comments:

Anonymous said...

At one time, when my social life was at a low point, I was sure glad that Sit Coms really made me laugh. I got such amusement from t.v.! I hardly watch t.v. now other than movies since we have cable and also now that I am online. Most of the time, the 24 hour news networks are on, and I get overload of their often tabloid news. I like the news if it is something that is thought provoking such as Datline was when I used to watch it a few years ago. At any rate, I am so glad that my social needs are small. I hardly go anywhere other than work. My mom and I are good friends though. And my dad and I get along good most of the time these days. He has a very good sense of humor as you may have gathered. Then I talk on the phone and with friends online. My sister comes to visit sometimes. She is a good friend too. My brother and sister-in-law and niece comes sometimes, but that makes me nervous as I get very scared around babies as they are so small and precious and I worry for their safety. My sister-in-law is a neat person. I am not extremely close, but I really like her. I get along with my brother too. I am not as close as I would like. He majored in Business and History and I don't even know what eras of history that he likes to study the most. In case I never mentioned, I so love the Revolutionary Era and the Restoration Era. I like to read Biographies and read an excellent one on Abigail Adams a few years back. Wow! I had not planned to get on so many tangents. I did want to add that when I feel isolated, I think of those Pioneer woman who often did not see another person other than family for ages as they were so spread out on their homesteads. I also think of all the hard work that they did and how weary they must have been at the end of the day.

Sarebear said...

I'm glad you've got people.

I'm also glad you are my friend.

Maybe when that show is on this fall, we can watch it "together" and then get on here and talk about it, email about it, whatever. Among other things. I haven't been good about emailing you.

Dr. Deb said...

Sometimes tv can be a great friend, a soothing place and even surrogate parents. The good thing is that you are asking yourself questions.

Anonymous said...

Sara, I would like to share with your thoughts about the show. By the way, it is fine if you are not into emailing. I appreciate that you keep the dialogue going here! Please let me know exactly when the show is on so I can hopefully view it.