Happy Blogaversary to me!

So it's been a year! I was tied up all day yesterday, which was the actual one year date, so I'm posting today. I started off the blog with this poem I wrote in 1993; most of you have read this before, but this plea of mine is still how I feel, so it's worth repeating.

A year . . . I've kinda wandered in several directions with this blog, and been rather unfocused at times, but hey, that's me. I have better intentions than I end up implementing, but that's me too.

Break out the non-alcoholic drinks, and party! That is, if my presence in the blogosphere is worth celebrating . . . (how pathetic is that, that I'm fishing for validation!!!) Well, I know I'm worth it, anyway! I think. I hope. Lol!

hear me
Do you hear my silent cries?
Are you listening for them?
Do you see the emptiness inside
where anger howls and batters away
inside me where pain is all
and frustration threatens to drown
all that I am and drain me away?
Do you see my dread to reveal too much
of who I am lest you recoil
from my ugliness that I fear
you will see inside me?
Please see some spark in me worth saving,
that I might have an anchor
in the midst of a churning,
storm-tossed sea, helpless
against the onslaught of fear
that looms and threatens to devour
my identity and my choices
of who I want to be.
As I try to withstand the
hurricane-force winds that shatter,
and scatter the shards of my
pain-wracked soul beyond my
trembling reach, please hear my
silent, desperate plea for succor
in my time of need and hopeless hoping
that perhaps someone may
nurture my anguished spirit and
hold my fragile heart in careful,
tender hands, with much Love and
Patience to endure me through
my trials and rejoice with me
as I discover precious eternal
truths.
- Copyright 1993 Sara J.P.(F.), July