I can't believe this is real; I think when he used the term "opening statement" it made me really feel like this mess is REAL; like that legal term really put me right in the hearing room w/the judge.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Can I run screaming now, like, to another STATE or COUNTRY, maybe?
Nobody WANTS to have to go in front of a judge and have a lawyer argue that they are psychiatrically disabled.
I DON'T WANT THIS!!! I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS!!
I do want the results of it, but . . . well, I know people play the system, but this hell is so horrible, how could anyone even go through this process? I guess if they're faking it, it doesn't hurt so bad . . .
I do not want to be that person that is being presented to a judge and experts as psychiatrically disabled. I don't want to be that person.
See? I have to say THAT . . . I can't say THIS. not yet . . . NOT YET. I can't even approach this. It's another person, in another state somewhere, IT'S NOT REALLY ME . . . .
Woops was gonna put some of this in a post . . . I'm going through some deeply difficult crud, here. Guess that sounds self-serving or something.
Sara, I know it helps me to view my ocd symptomes in third person a lot. I started doing that I my own and at times laughing at myself. However, it is important for improvement as well as being aware of it can help you not fall prey. This is called mindful awareness according to the book. I am not sure if it helps as much with bipolar. It may help to get through trial though to feel that it is not so real but that it is happening to someone else.
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Stop teasing me! I'm going to tell my mommy on you!
I was obviously being silly. I seriously hope nothing happened that was painful or shattering of your image of the 'iatrist.
it's ok barb, I like silly.
I can't believe this is real; I think when he used the term "opening statement" it made me really feel like this mess is REAL; like that legal term really put me right in the hearing room w/the judge.
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Can I run screaming now, like, to another STATE or COUNTRY, maybe?
eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Nobody WANTS to have to go in front of a judge and have a lawyer argue that they are psychiatrically disabled.
I DON'T WANT THIS!!! I DON'T WANT TO DO THIS!!
I do want the results of it, but . . . well, I know people play the system, but this hell is so horrible, how could anyone even go through this process? I guess if they're faking it, it doesn't hurt so bad . . .
I do not want to be that person that is being presented to a judge and experts as psychiatrically disabled. I don't want to be that person.
See? I have to say THAT . . . I can't say THIS. not yet . . . NOT YET. I can't even approach this. It's another person, in another state somewhere, IT'S NOT REALLY ME . . . .
Woops was gonna put some of this in a post . . . I'm going through some deeply difficult crud, here. Guess that sounds self-serving or something.
But. This CAN'T BE ME. THIS ISN'T WHO I AM.
eeeeeeeeeee
or maybe it was opening argument. I forget.
Sara, I know it helps me to view my ocd symptomes in third person a lot. I started doing that I my own and at times laughing at myself. However, it is important for improvement as well as being aware of it can help you not fall prey. This is called mindful awareness according to the book. I am not sure if it helps as much with bipolar. It may help to get through trial though to feel that it is not so real but that it is happening to someone else.
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